Monday, August 07, 2006

20 weeks


Dear Baby-to-Be,

Today marks the beginning of my 20th week of pregnancy. According to the wacky calendar of our doctor and all my books, that also means that this is the halfway point for this pregnancy. We are halfway there to meeting you, and this fills me with immeasurable happiness. I try to imagine what it will be like to see you for the first time, to hold you in my arms, to take you home with us, and my imagination fails me. I have no doubt that it will exceed my wildest expectations.

These days you are making yourself felt regularly. I can often distinguish a kick or punch from a roll, and I rest my hands on my belly to see what you might be doing in there. I have always dreamt of being pregnant, and feeling your kicks has been more magical than I ever dreamed. I'm surprised more women don't talk about it, because the feeling is amazing. Maybe we all like to keep it our own little secret, our private connection with the future loves of our lives.

My belly grows daily as well. When I was first pregnant, I anxiously awaited the moment when a stranger might be able to obviously tell that this was a baby belly. I'm just reaching that point, and now I find myself looking down at my growing bump with a good measure of fear, wondering just how big it will actually get. Bigger than I imagine, I'm sure. Probably even bigger than I'd like!

I've been so excited to start preparing for your arrival, I made myself promise that I wouldn't do anything until I reached 20 weeks. I picked that date in my mind, thinking that I'd have lots of time over the subsequent 20 weeks to get everything ready for you, and it has been a test of willpower to stick to my plan. I'm dying to have your room ready, to start picking out blankets and strollers and bedding and more. Now that I'm here, the task seems daunting, but I remind myself that the most important thing I can do for you is already being done. The rest will get finished sometime.

These first 20 weeks have flown by, and I'm sure the next 20 will go by in the blink of an eye. Years from now, I'll have a hard time remembering what it was like to have you inside of me, so I work to cherish as much as I can. Your father and I can't help but think about your arrival, your personality, your future. We talk about you all the time, we can't resist it.

We can't wait to meet you, my sweet baby. We're in love with you already.

Love,
Mama

15 comments:

Songbird said...

You are so sweet. What a lucky baby!

Bethiclaus said...

I can't believe you're already halfway there! The last 20 weeks will certainly seem to fly by when you look back on them, but I'm sure the day is coming soon when you'll think, "How can it not already be time?"

Maribeth said...

This is so sweet. I'm so happy for you! This pregnancy is going so fast!

Rev Dr Mom said...

Very, very sweet. And yes, the time does fly by!

liz said...

Such a beautiful post!

20 weeks was about the time I started needing to arrange pillows to take pressure off my legs and hips. If you can get a body pillow, you should.

KLee said...

These last 20 weeks will fly by. It will amaze and astound you how big your belly will get, and what a teeny little gorgeous person will come out of that "big bump."

I know you're excited, and so are the rest of us! We can't wait to see Baby! Have you thought of a blog nom de plume yet?

Yankee, Transferred said...

How exciting! Halfway there! That's the funny thing about adoption-you never have any idea how close or far away you are from actually having a baby. I cannot WAIT to see pictures. And I can tell you this: you think you're in love now, and you have no idea how deeply in love you will be.
Beautiful post.

Trisha said...

What a sweet letter to your baby. You are right, it is hard to remember what it felt like to carry the little one, once they are here and running around. Cherish every moment! Cute picture.

mamatulip said...

I love the picture!!

Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us...honestly, being able to "share" your pregnancy with you is an honour.

Mrs. Chicky said...

Aw, I'm getting a little teary here. I wish I would have written letters like this when I was pregnant. And that picture is priceless.

Ninotchka said...

Totally made me weepy. Que bella eres!

ccw said...

Beautiful picture! Beautiful post! You are going to make a most excellent mama.

Jessica said...

Ack...I'm all teary eyed!

Great post, HL and THANK YOU for the obligatory belly shot (you may remember that I recently requested one). I, too, loved all the rolling, kicking, punching and other sensations of being pregnant and, believe it or not, I do remember it - even though it was sixteen years ago.

Angela said...

This is the sweetest thing I have ever read.

Nancy said...

Love the belly shot. I never got one of me with just the belly (can you believe it?) and I realy wish I had.