Tuesday, January 09, 2007

two weeks














Dear Gabriel,

I can't believe you're finally here, and at the same time I can't remember life without you. I've spent months imagining what you would be like- whether you'd be your daddy's little girl or your mommy's boy, whether you'd be a troublemaker or an angel, whether you'd have my dimples or your father's cleft chin. In the end, though, I never imagined that you'd be this wonderful, this adorable, this beautiful in my eyes. I love you so much already, I can't stop counting your fingers and toes and running my fingers along your rapidly expanding cheeks.

I worried so much before you were born. I didn't know what kind of mother I'd be and whether I'd be able to take care of you, but I realize now that with this much love, I could never do anything less than my best. Maybe that won't be enough sometimes, but I'll try my hardest to be the mom that you need.

Last night, I stared at you over the edge of your bassinet and I missed you, even though you were less than 12 inches away from me. I closed my eyes and thanked God for the hundredth time since you have arrived into my life, for this precious blessed gift.

I love you so much. I love you so much. I love you so much. More than I ever thought possible.

Love,
Mommy

19 comments:

Angie said...

Told you so! Isn't life grand?!?!

my 2 cents said...

Aw, that is so sweet! He is adorable. I love the pictures you've posted of him!!

Ninotchka said...

Isn't motherhood just the best? Enjoy!

liz said...

I'm all weepy.

Summer said...

Sigh. He's gorgeous.

Yankee, Transferred said...

He is absolutely stunning, and I'm here to tell you that 18 and 14 years later, I'm still blown away by the depth of my love for my children, every single day. I'm so happy you're so happy.

Girl said...

Oh dear Lord! You made me cry.

Girl said...

Oh dear Lord! You made me cry.

KLee said...

I told you that it would be so much easier than you ever thought it could be.

He's beautiful. You're very right to be so proud and so in love. You'll think that your heart can't possibly love anyone any more, and then he'll smile at you, and your breath will be taken away. Or you'll see Josh asleep on the couch, with Gabe on his chest. Or Gabe will say, "I love you, Mommy." And your heart will both grow and melt at the same time.

Gladly, I'm here to tell you that it only gets better.

mc said...

Sniff, sniff. He's beautiful, and I'm so glad things are going well for you guys!

ccw said...

That feeling never leaves.

He is a beautiful baby!

meika said...

Ahhh, you're making the still-pregnant lady cry again! :)

Rev Dr Mom said...

He's beautiful!! Enjoy it all.

jo(e) said...

He's beautiful.

Maribeth said...

Oh he is so beautiful!

KathyR said...

Awww!

Elizabeth said...

Aww, look at your little sweet pea! I'm happy to say that the feeling of loving them so much more than you thought possible never goes away.

redmaryjanes said...

There are tears in my eyes because I remember that moment.
All I can say to you is that you are truly blessed. Your child is beautiful. AND the best is yet to come.

God Bless you All!

nancy said...

Beautiful letter...